THE HECK 2020

Hello World! <3

First thing, what the heck is going on in 2020…?

Yesterday I re-discovered my old fashion blog. Taking a trip down memory lane brought up quite a lot of emotions. One being how grateful I was I had written down my feeling and thoughts during times that have shaped my life and who I am today.

I feel very lucky that I documented those BIG moments in my life like moving to Scotland for university and all the little things and important people who held my hand during these times. I won’t lie it did make me cry and feel somewhat guilty that I have stopped blogging my life.

However, the most important thing is that reading over these precious memories has brought me a lot of joy and happiness and for that reason I am here writing this post.

I want to look back and read this with the same feelings of joy and also sadness. Sad because these are moments in my life I will never get back again but now I will never forget how these times made me feel and have helped shape me into me.

Plus I really don’t think there is no better time than there is right now to start again. I don’t think anyone thought that in 2020 we would be sitting at home while the world faces a pandemic.

In 2013 when writing my post pre moving to Scotland for uni I never in a million years would have thought that in 2020 I would be living in Amsterdam with my Spanish boyfriend who I am with because I dropped out of uni and moved to Spain in 2015. In the past five years we have lived together in the Netherlands , London and now back in the Netherlands again. What’s even more mind-blowing is that we are now living in Amsterdam with no idea when we can go home to see our families, friends and my little Peanie Potter. It is so hard to believe, even now, after nearly two months of being in the Dutch “intelligent lock-down” that we are in the midst of a pandemic that has changed the lives and perspectives of the whole world.

There is no better time than now to document this very crazy time to be alive. 

How is life in Amsterdam during lock-down? A question I have been asked a lot by friends and family.

In honesty, it really isn’t that bad or scary here. In fact, it’s far from it. People seem chilled and daily life seems to be rather normal compared to other countries. Of course our lives have had to go through some adjustments here. For example, we haven’t interacted with our friends here except through a screen, and we only go out for walks and cycles just the two of us. Everyone in the supermarket must have a trolley and not a basket to keep distance between each other and all group events have been cancelled until September. We are allowed to go outside, and we are allowed to travel more than 2 km compared to Ireland and other places. There isn’t any restrictions regarding travel distances as long as the rules of social distancing our followed, etc.

One big personal adjustment is that I am currently not working nor am I working from home. However, I am extremely lucky and feel even more grateful that I am still being paid. This is a huge relief and my perspective of working for Lululemon has only grown deeper with love.

I would say the scariest part of this situation for me is the unknown of when I will be able to return home and see my little mama, papa, family and Peanie. I’ve had many nightmares and one panic attack during this time but in all life is positive. Like many people out there I’m having mostly good days and some bad. I would say I have been having more bad moments rather than days but in all I am feeling positive and happy. My emotions are high and sometimes I feel like a roller-coaster but I’ve always been a glass half full person and I’ve always had the mentally of keeping on. I can quite easily tell myself to get up and get on with it. Majority of days this works like a charm but the last couple of weeks especially have been more challenging.

Finding a routine has been my biggest help since this all began. I’ve gone through many different weekly routines over the last few weeks trying to find the one that works best for me. Most mornings I get up & do 10 minutes of morning yoga, eat my breakfast, and head out for a morning walk with my headphones and a podcast.

Podcasts: another thing which is helping me lift my negative thoughts and turn them to positive. Honestly the power of hearing others talk positively and openly with vulnerability really does have a way of changing my mood and outlook each morning. Sometimes this doesn’t last all day but most days it does.

After getting some morning fresh air I usually feel filled with motivation to keep on going. This is when I tend to do my home workout. I’ve been following one of my favourite YouTube influences, Sarah’s Day, workout guide.  I like to get it done in the morning after my walk because this is when I usually feel the most motivated in the day. If I leave my workout for the evening or later on in the afternoon I have the tendency to come up with excuse after excuse.

My morning’s have kept relatively the same except for the odd adjustment, sometimes I skip my morning walk or stretches, etc, but no major adjustments to write about. My afternoons however have been a bit willy nilly. Sometimes I paint and watch a marathon of Bob Ross, other days I video call friends and family for hours and sometimes I cook or clean the house obsessively. Then there’s also the days where I don’t feel motivated for anything and sit on the couch watching YouTube all day trying to forget the world.

So that’s my life update, lock-down edition. 

One thing this BIG time in all our lives has given me is the gratitude I failed to see before it. The gratitude to have amazing family, friends, Lululemon and a very special person to be sharing it with here in Amsterdam. I’ve also never been in more contact with all the special people in my life. Daily calls and catch up’s with my mama, papa, and friend’s gives me so much life.

I would so love to hear how you are keeping and spending your time during lock-down wherever in the world you are reading this? Please feel free to leave a comment below and share your own experience.

 

Stay safe & well! 

All my love & big hugs, Ella xxx

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